Have you ever been in denial about being gay? What was the moment that you realised you were in denial?

A year ago, I began dating my first woman. It was hard for me to accept, because previously I was Mormon. However, I could not deny the feelings I had for her. I could have tried, but I knew that even if I pretended, my life would always be empty in some ways. I still struggle from time to time, but the heart knows what it wants. I don't self-identify as anything. I don't see the need. I am in love with another human being. She just happens to be female, like me :)